Thank you. The last two words written on a piece of paper during Bible study. Not the only two words, just the last two. A list of prayer requests are at the top of the page. The list of loved ones who are ill or dealing with death and other hardships in life… there were no praises that week. The most notable request coming from someone asking we pray for the family of the bombers of the Boston marathon.
Half way down the page a note is scribbled from the video on James we were watching… Father will give whatever you ask in Jesus name.
Then the beginning of a prayer:
Lord –
Thank you
Nothing else, not even a punctuation. Written in preparation of closing the session in prayer, forgetting the study would just end on the prayer given at the end of the video… interrupted by anguish and being asked to think about the most recent time you’ve experienced mental distress. Interrupted by a video centered around childbirth, the anguish of losing a child, and finding joy in the midst of the anguish. Lord, Thank you was all that was written. At that point, what He is to be thanked for is uncertain, perhaps it was a thank you for finally putting a word to the pain, maybe for the sense of peace that is finally arrived, for the joy that was found in the midst of anguish, maybe for shining a light on the all of the things in life that needed letting go and for a renewal of spirit. Who knows what that thank you was for… they were the only words that would come out that day.
Today, the thank you is for finally putting a word to the pain, for the renewed spirit, the ability to look at life differently than before, for all of the vast and unending blessing being poured out on life even when there are times it feels as if everything is lost. Today, the thank you is for the realization that sometimes fewer words are more than enough, the realization that less is in fact more. Today, the thank you is for this wonderfully crazy, out of our control life.